Have you ever felt like you were standing on the edge of a cliff? A cliff so high above the rest of the world that the wind was your breath; no other human being could see or hear you. It was just you and the cliff and the bustling world going on without you down below? I am there. My eyes are rimmed red with unease and my heart is heavy. There is so much awful in the world right now that the hope of the New Year is tarnished with violence and dispair. A woman whose face I had never seen until last Saturday night haunts me from my computer screen and TV. I am so absorbed by her story that I constantly check the local online news for updates on what the hell happened to her.
A gal I went to high school with now knows her 6 year old little boy only has 6 months to live. She was on the Denver news with Jacob and she was so brave. She told the reporter that her little boy will die. 6 months. http://www.kdvr.com/news/kdvr-young-brain-cancer-patient-visits-with-colorado-avalanche-20120110,0,6312942.story
I am standing on this cliff, my toes gripping the edge and feel the wind and close my eyes and wish that the pain that tears hearts apart were just bad dreams. That the agony of heartache would just float away like a cloud; dissipate into thin air. I wish the wind would blow the bad away. I wish people didn’t have to fear each other and that little children didn’t get cancer. I wish the beautiful serendipity of life didn’t also include darkness and tears. I wish peace for the people who are hurting in the world right now.
I wish my make believe cliffs of solitude were a real place I could go right now to just be. To sit in the green grass and pick exotic wild flowers and maybe a few Indian Paintbrush (totally illegal, but not on my cliff). I wish everyone had a cliff to go where the wind takes your breath away and holds you in comforting quiet. A cliff so far above the rest of the world that even if you fell, you would never hit bottom. A place so elevated it held you above the world. Because it truely is a beautiful place, this Earth.
The Book of Revelation tells us that “He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.”
